I feel stuck
in a (day) job I can’t afford to quit. I really like my job for reasons I cannot reveal just in case a co-worker reads this. The simple answer is, my job is easy. Way to easy. I have become overqualified for the job I do. It’s not that I cannot learn to be better it’s that I don’t want to become better. I feel stuck and hate making money for other people while I do “all” the work. (All the work?? LOL I draw while others sell.)
Who am I? I AM THE Advertising Manager. **the drums… BOOM BOOM BOOM*** I wasn’t always the Manager, in fact, I am the only one who calls me a Manager. See, I am the only one who does the advertising, so naturally, I am the Manager. I started my job with a lie. I told my bosses that I could replace the old advertising person, when in fact I had no Idea what to do. I knew that I could learn though and the other guy was moving up in the company leaving the position open.
YouTube saved my job. Without knowing the first thing to designing advertisements I took to YouTube and watched hours upon hours of videos teaching me Graphic Design. I learned just enough to keep my bosses happy. In fact, I kept them very happy, I save them on average $15,000 a year or more. I am not very good at math so we’ll keep it at $15,000.
After I thought I had learned enough, I started my own after-hours Graphic Design company. I landed a few jobs and one big job that paid about a 3rd of what I could have made. I realized this after I finished the 56-page event guide. The next year when the job came up I asked for the full amount and was shot down. One hit wonder. But I have a lot of event guides to show off. So what did I do?
I quit. That’s right I let my Graphic Design business fail on purpose. I stopped looking for new clients and told current clients that “this” design would be their last. I still do small designs for family and friends. Friends? I mean acquaintances. I don’t have friends but that’s a topic for another day.
My Graphic Design failure is added to a long list of failed business attempts. And now that I don’t like being a Graphic Designer, I am letting my bosses down. I could do so much more for them,… But I don’t. Which brings us back to the title.
I feel stuck. I show up for work and do the many tasks that have become easy for me. No challenge. No growth. No excitement. No anything.
****This isn’t the end of the story. It’s only the beginning. Yes, I do feel stuck but as my situation unravels it will hopefully become clear as to what is about to happen. Keep reading PD’s Blog***